#BUT its different

[sandinmybed]

okay yeah im only 25 and i grew up with so much more queer representation than people even just 5-10 years older than me but GOD what i wouldnt have given to have people like chappell roan or heartstopper and its cast to look up to back then! imagining my 12 year old self watching that show... i would have cried my little heart out tbh idc if its a bit saccharine sometimes. and i can't even imagine what chappell roan would've done to me. im so happy young queers have these things but god imagine

[starii-lins]

guess what i got into now

tried to make an animatic, gave up 9 frames in, then came up with an idea

[artisticmiles]

Headcanon: North Carolina has been a total WRECK this month over Matpat retiring. Full on sobbing at the drop of a hat.

Britain is extremely excited since Tom (a British person) will now be hosting Game Theory. He has probably already started bragging about it

[braverytattoos]

how many times do you think louis asked people backstage if his hair looked okay before going on stage?

[lozeyart]

I'm not sure I'm liking how this is turning out so I'll throw it here for now.

(This here is Éamon in his underwear, my new character. I'm just trying to work on his top surgery scars but failing miserably)

[zukkacore]

Literally nobody is gonna get this bc it’s a reference to something that doesn’t exist in a way that can be perceived by anyone who isn’t my like 3 irl friends I shared the doc with and not to be a redundant hack but the phrase "I know I don't matter to you the way he matters to you" actually is from an DIFFERENT wip of mine that i stole from myself b/c i liked it so much. I think i have a thing for ships where the want for someone else just hangs over their interaction. I love putting little blonde bitches in situations where nobody gets what they want.

But it's like. The contrast is so sad to me b/c there IS a layer of cruelty to togakure hookup at naegiri wedding fic b/c its blatantly Togami trying to get over his feelings for his best friends and yes im using you for sex but there's like such a genuine earnest quality to it and he is being kinda REAL here its like. No i'm not in love with you but you're still one of my oldest friends. And that means everything.

It's like. The cruelty of the response to "i know i don't matter to you the way he matters to you" by comparison that J2 gets from Porter is like. IDK

[angelpuns]

I forgot that the OFMD finale came out Thursday but now I have no time to watch it cause I'm having a busy weekend again :/ and the fact is I'm sort of avoiding it now cause it know its the finale and I really really really need something to look forward to :/

[ritz-writes-archive]

google docs changed their design ever so slightly and my autism is screaming

[captainimprobable]

my team agrees with me.

my episode is over. officially. it’s done.  it’s over.  writing that down made me cry I’m at work in tears because I never ever thought September would end but it DID I don’t know why I’m crying.  Mourning what I lost? How bad it was? Happy because I’m not there anymore?  I don’t know. But it’s over.

[sunflowersand-bees]

the way my heart fucking brrrghe when a fic author says they recognize my username and appreciate my comments

[aropride]

interaction i have with shocking regularity is when someone’s complaining abt someone they know and theyre like “ughh they’re 21 and dont have a job and refuse to learn to drive” and then they remember who they’re talking to (me. 21 cant work cant drive) and go like

[w-stote]

i was surprised to see French on my dash so i looked into them

THEY ARE MY PEOPLE LOST LIVING IN YOUR COUNTRY. I am happy you are grateful of the french yogurt I am also grateful of any french dairy products since French folks know only to be good at making 2 things 1- traditional wheat bread 2- dairy products

I bought this expensive ass yogurt as a gift to myself so that I could make little candles in the tiny terracotta pot it comes in and it turns out it is the best, creamiest, most buttery heavenly delicious yogurt I have ever tasted and I’m now addicted

[angelicgarnet]

the way people online talk about autism is getting really weird, like do they know that neurotypicals still have interests? that someone being passionate about a hobby doesn't mean they're autistic? you guys know that right

[valtsv]

anyone who thinks dostoevsky's writing is dry and humourless is missing out on passages like this

[pretty-boy-eddie]

This: I have so many photos that SCREAM Richie from my highschool/middle school years and seeing them in the show had me blacking out for a full hour

i think part of why npmd works so well is bc the nerdy prudes are all kinda real af??? like... i dressed just like pete in highschool and have pictures to prove it. for better or for worse, watching richie in certain scenes was like fondly cringing at my past self. ruth's reflexive "don't bully me!" and their collective tendency to assume the worst whenever the popular kids talk to them (and the realisation that not all of them are bad, actually, some of them - like steph - are really cool)... god. it's so real. painfully so, at times

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.